I work the deepest tread.
The deepest crooks and crannies.
When there is a fissure, there I am.
Where there is a hole, there I am.
Trust, I am there.

I am the Black Boon Lady

The bringer of gifts through the dark

Through the imposing

Through the looming in wait

I scar and blossom and fruit

I dredge up the old

To bring fire to the new

I hollow out and decimate

The fears of the old

You can depend on me

To never let you rest

Until the whole of you is revealed

I accept nothing less

Poetry and Stories for My Paintings

I’m alive with life

I paint with life

I am life itself

The one, the all

The many

I am the seed

The source

The fresh and the dead

All are Me

With my hooded folds I enclose, protect

And breathe life

Into Being

With my hands

I shape and love

All into Being

All forms

All energies

All life

I am the dreamer

And the dreamed

The dream itself

I crush

I fold

I spindle

And I weave

In every moment

Creation into Being

I love, I see, I need you all

As you need me

Forever we are in this dance

How to accept the unacceptable

That I am the one who protects

And loves and grieves with you

And the one who takes you down into your darkest of dreams

And your deepest of fears

That through and as me

All “good” and all “bad”

Are reconciled

She is a version of the Black Madonna.. I think the poem says it pretty well. I painted her maybe 9months after I had my (kidney) transplant , or maybe a little over a year. And she represents that aspect of life that seems to take you through those deepest, deepest initiatory challenges, and you come out the other side in a whole different way, in a whole different strength, she represents that fierce quality of life.

"She represents, for me, that part of life that seems to have such efficiency in these darker times, those challenging times. Those things that are a part of life that seem to bring the deepest growth and integration through going through these things that you feel will kill you. The kidney transplant and the dialysis were definitely my deepest fear. So much so that I had told my family that if It came to getting a kidney transplant or dialysis I wasn't going to do it, id rather die, but I chose life. I chose to continue. And the creative  thought that has come out of me, going through that deep experience and deep passage. I wouldn't change it, I wouldn't change the past. I feel it birthed me into being an artist in a whole new way.